It's not a number, it's a state of mind
2003-06-26 @ 9:34 p.m.


I feel this great, unfounded pressure to get my act together. Not that my life is all that chaotic to begin with, but I feel like I should know what I'm doing, where I'm going by now. But I don't. I'm confused; I'm agitated; I'm irritated; I'm ambivalent; I'm anxious. I can't stop thinking. Employable Skills!Sarah battles Academic!Sarah. I love school; I worry about money. I want to go to grad school; I don't want to leave home. I want a job; I want my ivory tower. I want to chuck it all and be free. I need to work through this stuff but I can't stand the anxiety dreams. I can't stop shoulding myself.

Thought of the Day:

I hate being twenty.

before ~ after

Failing Miserably - 2004-10-08
So Not Dead/Catching Up - 2004-09-20
Murphy's Law - 2,629,163,298, Sarah - 2 - 2004-08-23
Listmainia! continues - 2004-08-04
Continuing the list - 2004-08-02